He redeems me from death
and crowns me with love and tender mercies.
Psalms explores with poetic beauty the suffering and joys of life. It is easy to get lost in the gorgeous phrasing, and in the rawness of the emotions expressed. Yet, there is a deeper nuance of meaning that sometimes God brings to my attention. Today, as a I read Psalm 103:4, the word “crowns” stood out to me.
What is a crown? A beautiful and weighty symbol of authority recognized across multiple cultures and eras. By crowning me with His love and kindness, God is resting the full weight and beauty of His love and kindness on me. This is a deep and permanent expression of ultimate love.
Depression can make one feel worthless – unloved and unlovable. In my darkest moments, the only emotion I can connect to is a sense of self-loathing. It is like my ability to connect to positive feelings or affirmations is shut off. I focus on my pain and shut out the world, and anything that could possibly help me feel better. Then I remember the crown of God’s love – it is the truth that surpasses the lies of depression.
He redeems me from death, or, put another way, He rescues me from the emotional darkness of depression. Then He seals the rescue by lavishing me with His love and kindness. Even when I have a difficult day – or season – His crown of love and kindness is upon me.